Another day, another reason
What that actually refers to is my never ending source of self-excuses for my writing behavior.
I’m not justifying anything, but I really had these huge plans that I could dive in and get something done when the kitchen was finished. (insert maniacal laughter) That hasn’t seemed to happen. I find myself bouncing from idea to idea, always finding something more enticing to work on than the subject I told myself, promised myself, I’d finish. 
I know exactly what went wrong with my intended rewrite/edit of an old book I wanted to resurrect. I never could get to a “place” where I had no distractions and could find the zone I needed to really hash the story line, character arcs and plot out in my head clearly. I was surface writing. Surface writing is shallow, often pointless and babbling and has little conflict and writing’s equivilant of stick people. NOT what I want to produce. Not what I can stand to go back and reread, if only to “catch up” and get back into the groove.
The last week or so I’ve been spending computer time typing in 80+ handwritten pages of a nascar themed story I finished last fall and sat aside. That seems to be going okay and I ‘like’ the story. Hell yeah, it needs work, but at least it’s worth editing and no burning.
When I can’t transcribe, I’m allowing myself to write random scenes from a number of other books/ideas in a notebooks. They’re creative outlets, hopefully jumping boards to other ideas or character development. I suppose it’s not the best way to go and it certainly isn’t churning out viable stories, but I’ve at least come to grips with the truth I think I’ve known all along. I can’t not write. My creativity hasn’t died. Reality has simply intruded and frankly…I let it. Now it’s time to figure out how to fight back. 
Quit putzing around and get back to work. And turn in that NASCAR book, for the love of all that’s holy, woman.
March 17th, 2009 | #
Git R Done
(my dh would be so proud I said that, lol!)
March 18th, 2009 | #
I’s gettin’ I’s gettin. Not that I hadn’t tried, but when I was struggling to write while multitasking a bunch of other stuff, I was sooooo discouraged. I’d think of great dialogue and interesting stuff when I was dozing off, or early in the morning before I had enough strength to open my eyes or when I was cooking, doing dishes, showering, driving… you know, all those times when you CAN’T write? I was wondering if I’d just lost the edge. Now I’ve come to figure out I need to give myself a bit to THINK in silence, then I can write. So I write by hand when I can, alone in my room, and then type when all the other distractions are present. So I’sa workin!
March 19th, 2009 | #